MOOSE ROAD, a Canadian Tragedy

 MOOSE ROAD, a Canadian Tragedy - an excerpt

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Angel is my name. I'm named after my mother who died twenty-one years ago on the day I was born. I've never had the pleasure of meeting her; at least not that I can remember. Did we meet when I nestled safe and warm within her womb? I like to think that we did but I don't know. I can't recall and I guess I will never know for certain.

I'm told by my dad that she died on her bed right here in this house even before she gave birth to me. I think being born to a dead woman is about as creepy as anything can get but I'm told that's what happened. Thinking about it grosses me out. Though I try not to let my mind dwell on it, this knowledge is ingrained within my very being. Until now I have found no escape route from this harsh reality but I continue to search. I can only hope that one day I will find deliverance,

It is true that I find it very hard if not impossible to forget about the way I entered this cruel world. The biggest reason for that is something I blame on my father. One of the greatest problems I have is that my dad always likes to remind me of my mother's passing. He heaps the blame upon my head and has done so since I was a very little girl. He condemns me for my mother's death. Too often he will say to me, "If it weren't for you she would still be here with me."

Like a broken record he is.  It's almost a daily ritual. 

He also likes to remind me of my dependence upon him. "Where would you be without me, Angel?"

When he asks this question he doesn't expect an answer from me and I don't disappoint him. I want to tell him to be quiet; to just shut up but I've grown accustomed to offering him silence and I don't know how to break this habit. I hide in my silence.  It is my refuge.

His question scares me because, though I don't like where I am, I fear that where I could be without him might be even worse. Then I ask myself how anything could be worse. How could anything be worse than this sick, evil existence I am forced to endure?

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